*summer rant*

[shirubia]

God I am so exhausted, I just want to retire now.

I can't sleep well; I am sleepy and tired as fuck most of the time. When I'm not tired I'm angry because heat and climate change and mosquito bites and whatnot.

When I was a student at least I could enjoy the summer break with all my friends (or lack thereof). Now I just have to work like the rest of the year, mostly. My (younger) friends have free time and can do stuff, while I'm, you know. Working.

Feeling excluded because you're old and have to spend the majority of the day earning monies is the stupidest thing ever.

On the other hand, I feel as if I were slowly becoming a better person overall. I am trying to improve how I manage and express my emotions, among other things. For someone like me, it's a huge effort.

Being a human being in summer is hard, but so is the rest of the year.

Comments

[carisma_sensei]

I'm the total opposite. I have no job no matter how hard I try, I failed the exams to become a teacher (and even the people who passed them won't work this year or next year probably lol) and my life is a mess.

I'm going to take a course in web programming and hope for the best. I need to be able to find a job before 2021 when the next exams (oposiciones) will be held. And I feel like I'm taking the plunge without a safety net. But... it's a long story.

I wish I could work but THEN I would feel like you do. I have lots of free time and don't know what to do with it, or I can't do anything because I lack the money lol.

Life is a complete bitch. I feel you. *hugs*

[shirubia]

I do feel bad for complaining... I know what you're talking about, and it's a lot worse. I know cause I've been there for many years (only found a steady job 2'5 years ago. I'm 32 and I feel like I've wasted SO MUCH TIME).

If you take any IT courses, your English is excellent (an absolutely necessary skill) so you already have an advantage in that field. Keep fighting!! If I can find a job, YOU CAN DO IT TOO!!!!

*lots of hugs and love*

[carisma_sensei]

Let's hope I can do something with this new route... I've been webdesigning since I was 16 and I've always wanted to have an official title and be able to, somehow, make a living. Education is a long shot route want it or not, so that's why I'm also trying this. I don't know what will happen from now on I'm scared lol.

I totally didn't know your history. Sounds a lot like what's happening to me so you are my current inspiration lol! ♥

[shirubia]

>I totally didn't know your history. Sounds a lot like what's happening to me so you are my current inspiration lol! ♥

🙈 oh my! I have a great responsibility now hahah

Most IT professionals I know are rarely unemployed, if ever. Maybe you'll need a shittier job at first, but once you gain a bit of experience you will find something better for sure.

I'm a support technician so it's not the same line of work lol but if there's anything I can help you with, let me know ♥

[carisma_sensei]

Voy a tener que comentarte en español si no te importa xD
Voy a sacarme un certificado de profesionalidad en diseño web que dura un año. Una amiga se lo ha sacado y ya está currando y se está sacando el ciclo superior de creación web. Así que seguramente yo haré lo mismo. De verdad espero que me salga curro de esto porque tengo 28 y literalmente he tenido 2 trabajos de puta mierda que me han durado nada xD Y ser maestra no es una opción porque las oposiciones son tómbola total jajajaja. Ais. Doy un paso alante y dos atrás T_T

[shirubia]

Pues si a tu amiga le ha servido para encontrar curro, buena señal es. Además conocer gente, hacer prácticas en algún sitio, etc. también forma una red de relaciones que ayuda. Creo que dicen que la mitad de personas que encuentran trabajo lo hacen a través de amigos y conocidos (me parece una barbaridad de cifra, pero bueno. Somos asíN).

Yo también me he sacado certificados de profesionalidad (dos, si no recuerdo mal. Jaja). Eso es también una muestra de que has "aprovechado el tiempo" y te has movido mientras no encontrabas trabajo, lo tienen en cuenta, etc. Todo son pasitos hacia adelante, aunque ahora no lo parezca :)

[carisma_sensei]

Eso espero, ir dando pasitos porque si me quedo estancada sé positivamente que me voy a quedar ahí y no voy a conseguir nada. De momento estoy súper emocionada jajaja. Ojalá haber hecho esto antes xD

[os]

The season will soon be anew with a slightly improved Shiru.
The icy mist of winter will wash over you, and a strange familiar feeling on your face will return--a smile, as you briefly forget summer ever happened.

...Or something. :D

(Always Look On The Bright Side Of Life *whistle, whistle whistle whistle*)

[shirubia]

I will R I S E... to fall soon again into slumber, as winter will come and I shall hibernate lol