*summer rant*

[shirubia]

God I am so exhausted, I just want to retire now.

I can't sleep well; I am sleepy and tired as fuck most of the time. When I'm not tired I'm angry because heat and climate change and mosquito bites and whatnot.

When I was a student at least I could enjoy the summer break with all my friends (or lack thereof). Now I just have to work like the rest of the year, mostly. My (younger) friends have free time and can do stuff, while I'm, you know. Working.

Feeling excluded because you're old and have to spend the majority of the day earning monies is the stupidest thing ever.

On the other hand, I feel as if I were slowly becoming a better person overall. I am trying to improve how I manage and express my emotions, among other things. For someone like me, it's a huge effort.

Being a human being in summer is hard, but so is the rest of the year.

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[carisma_sensei]

I'm the total opposite. I have no job no matter how hard I try, I failed the exams to become a teacher (and even the people who passed them won't work this year or next year probably lol) and my life is a mess.

I'm going to take a course in web programming and hope for the best. I need to be able to find a job before 2021 when the next exams (oposiciones) will be held. And I feel like I'm taking the plunge without a safety net. But... it's a long story.

I wish I could work but THEN I would feel like you do. I have lots of free time and don't know what to do with it, or I can't do anything because I lack the money lol.

Life is a complete bitch. I feel you. *hugs*

[os]

The season will soon be anew with a slightly improved Shiru.
The icy mist of winter will wash over you, and a strange familiar feeling on your face will return--a smile, as you briefly forget summer ever happened.

...Or something. :D

(Always Look On The Bright Side Of Life *whistle, whistle whistle whistle*)