I flew too close to the sun

God I am so exhausted, I just want to retire now.

I can't sleep well; I am sleepy and tired as fuck most of the time. When I'm not tired I'm angry because heat and climate change and mosquito bites and whatnot.

When I was a student at least I could enjoy the summer break with all my friends (or lack thereof). Now I just have to work like the rest of the year, mostly. My (younger) friends have free time and can do stuff, while I'm, you know. Working.

Feeling excluded because you're old and have to spend the majority of the day earning monies is the stupidest thing ever.

On the other hand, I feel as if I were slowly becoming a better person overall. I am trying to improve how I manage and express my emotions, among other things. For someone like me, it's a huge effort.

Being a human being in summer is hard, but so is the rest of the year.